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I wish time would slow, Only at times when the moment enchants me, Moments with you. I wish everyone saw themselves how I perceive them, If only you could see yourself how I perceive you. I wish love couldn't cause intense pain, If our conflict didn't cause me intense pain. I wish eyes didn't intoxicate, If yours didn't maybe your words wouldn't mean so much to me. I wish hearts would stop interfering, If mine didn't my head would be so much clearer. But most of all I wish only for you.

Looking through old photo albums And realising you weren't always there seems crazy to me, You're such a big part of my life now, And the 1095 days, 3 years, 156 weeks That we've been best friends Seems to have gone by in a blink, Yet seemed like a lifetime. I feel completely safe around you, Utterly comfortable and absolutely myself. You are the most important person in my life, And I hope you'll always consider me your best friend, Because I know, I know for a fact, You will always be mine. I want to share all my new experiences with you, I wouldn't want to with anyone else. The next year will be our year; The n

Everyone has those little insecurities, Obscure and unnoticed by others, Yet still constant. Yes, she has one too. The girl who's always noticed, Everyone double takes, Expensive make up perfectly placed on her sculpted face. But that make up's a mask, Hiding her insecurities, her flaws.

I long to exercise my desires I hold on to deep inside me, Squirming to the surface to dwell in my existence, I want to hold it back, but believe me it's strong, My lustful heart clings to any chance, any opportunity to embark, Embark in the things it was created to drown in, To drown in excitement, To drown in lust, To drown in sin, Bathe in the things my body craves, Craving for all the bad, all the evil, just the way it could be, If you weren't in the picture, the perfect little picture, But is 'perfect' what I really want? When my very being lusts for destruction and chaos.

The thought of your smile not making my stomach twist in a dance of compassion, Your beautiful dark hair not being caressed by my finger tips, Our hands not meeting when we meet, our lips not colliding with passion when you leave, Goodbye's not resonating in my ears when you walk away, Your mannerisms not making me quake, my heart not fluttering when we kiss, Words falling from your tongue having no effect on my thoughts, Tears descending on your cheeks not forcing my own cheeks to dampen, The smell of you not foreshadowing my love for your being, Your features not being admired by my darting eyes, Please oh please, Don't let me s